I long for this. I wish for this. This side of Heaven, it is simply not going to happen.
So, I had the epiphany that it’s ok to use surgery to lose weight if that is what it takes. In a perfect world, I would be able to eat anything and not have blood sugar issues. In a perfect world I would never overeat. In a perfect world, weight loss surgery would never be an option.
I don’t live in perfect world.
So, I am working towards having Lap Band surgery sometime in March.
In a perfect world I would not have depression or anxiety. In a perfect world, I would not need medication to help me deal with life. In a perfect world, all of the chemicals and hormones in my body would be in the perfect amounts and would always work perfectly.
I do not live in a perfect world.
Therefore, I am currently taking build-up doses of two SSRI drugs to help me deal with depression and anxiety. It may even help with my eating disorder.
I am happy that God has made provision for having to live in a less-than-perfect world.
